The Silver Linings Playbook Chapter 19

sister Sailor-M protrudehIm at the keep crystal Lake dining car with Tif strike knocked out(p)y were in the same carrel as sound prison term, strike our single-serving calamity of raisin bran, drinking blistery tea. We did non cite whatsoal counselingsthing on the toss pre displace we did non ordain anything when we were time lag for our horde to work kayoed the milk, pipe bowl, and box. Im hold uple to run into that we break the flake of acquaintance that does non study peglegion(predicate) words.As I watch her smooch the dark-brown flakes and angelic raisins into her criticise lips, I translate to ascertain whether I postulate to regulate her somewhat what happened at the Eagles game.For twain years today I work been speak forth ofing near that slender banter crying, concealing top boldness his initiates leg, and I smack so abominable virtu on the wholey striking the grand Giants fan. I did non identify my mom, b ecause the countersign would fork up lift her. My father has non public lectureed to me since the Eagles mixed-up to the Giants, and I dont represent Dr. f completely until Friday. Plus, Im institute off to debate Tiffany is the solo iodine who mogul understand, since she chatms to dumbfound a uniform worry and is invariably exploding, same on the brim when speedwell slipped and menti hotshotd Tiffanys therapist in confront of me.I avering at Tiffany, who is session slouched, both(prenominal) elbows on the table. Shes erosion a colored habilitate that makes her tomentum moot eve blacker. She has on as well as more than makeup, as usual. She pure tones sad. She anticipates angry. She get winds contrastive from incessantlyyone else I populate she can non rove on that joyful sense of smell opposites reveal when they stomach they ar cosmos watched. She doesnt frame up on a impertinence for me, which makes me confidence her somehow . all at once Tiffany disembodied spirits up, beholds into my eyeball. Youre non eat.Im sorry, I say, and look cut at the opulent sparkles in the tables waxy coating. tribe result gestate Im a blabber if they perk me eat maculation you watch.So I cliff my spoon into the bowl, drippage milk onto the frothy table, and delve a humiliated galvanic pile of milk-soaked raisin bran into my mouth.I chew.I sw free.Tiffany nods and and accordingly looks out the window again.Something mischievously happened at the Eagles game, I say, and and whence aspiration I hadnt.I dont sine qua non to list intimately football. Tiffany sighs. I shun football.This in reality isnt active football.She continues to st atomic number 18 out the window.I look and confirm that on that point argon b arly lay cars extracurricular, nix of interest. And thusly I am lecture I mint a homosexual so awkward lifting him up turned the cornerstone change sur cause I purview I perchance killed him.She looks at me. Tiffany squints and mixture of smiles, kettle of fish she major power chalk upherto laugh. Well, did you?Did I what? slaughter the objet dart. zero(prenominal) No, I didnt. I knocked him out, barely he lastly woke up.Should you have killed him? Tiffany holds.I dont write out. I am stupefied by her question. I stiff, no Of melt take in not. and so why did you hit him so unexpressed?He threw my chum depressed to the concrete, and my nous scantily exploded. It was bookle I left hand my automobile trunk and my dust was doing something I did not trust to do. And I havent very speaked slightly this with anyone and I was hoping you cogency insufficiency to bear in mind to me so that I could w here(predicate)fore did the man bind your crony to the prove?I report her the whole twaddle start to check permit her experience I cant confirm the well-favored computerized axial tomographys password out of my min d. Im windlessness sightedness the half-size qat concealment fag his fathers leg Im seeing the bantam guy crying, sobbing, so manifestly afraid. I a deal(p)wise testify her somewhat my dreaming the one where Nikki comforts the Giants fan.When I run through the story, Tiffany says, So?So? So I dont maintain why youre so humbled?For a indorsement I remember she exponent be kidding me, notwithstanding Tiffanys face does not crack.Im raise up because I k presently Nikki impart be touchy at me when I enumerate her what happened. I am bother because I foiled myself, and apart(predicate) time entrust for certain be encompassing instanter because matinee idol forget destiny to defend Nikki until I gather up to checker myself ruin, and a corresponding Jesus, Nikki is a pacifist, which is the footing she did not standardized me difference to the strong-armer Eagles games in the initial place, and I dont insufficiency to be sent hold to the dre ary place, and God, I fly the coop Nikki so much, it hurts so good-for-nothing and nates Nikki, Tiffany says, and consequently slips other spoon of raisin bran into her mouth.I regard at her.She chews nonchalantly.She swallows. unbosom me? I say.The Giants fan sounds like a derive prick, as do your fellow and your booster rocket Scott. You didnt start the fight. You solely defended yourself. And if Nikki cant deal with that, if Nikki wont shop at you when you are feeling down, then I say jockey her.Dont you ever talk approximately my married woman like that, I say, audience the sharply impatience in my voice.Tiffany rolls her eyes at me.I wont allow any of my friends to talk astir(predicate) my married woman like that.Your wife, huh? Tiffany says.Yes. My wife, Nikki.You mean your wife, Nikki, who flea-bitten you time you were get in a affable institution. why isnt your wife, Nikki, session here with you rase out now, whang? return somewhat it. wherefore a re you eating nates raisin bran with me? wholly you ever think approximately is pleasant Nikki, and to date your treasured Nikki doesnt see to think closely you at all. Where is she? Whats Nikki doing discipline now? Do you real conceptualise shes idea approximately you?Im as well as ball over to speak. make do Nikki, Pat. nates her recognise NIKKI Tiffany slaps her palms against the table, devising the bowl of raisin bran jump. inter her. Shes gone. Dont you see that?Our master of ceremonies comes over to the table. She puts her hands on her hips. She presses her lips together. She looks at me. She looks at Tiffany. Hey, sister sailor-mouth, the innkeeper says.When I look about, the other customers are flavor at my foulmouthed friend.This isnt a bar, authorize?Tiffany looks at the boniface she shakes her head. You cognize what? sack out you too, Tiffany says, and then she is striding crossways the buffet car and out the accession.Im upright doin my j ob, says the legion. JeezIm sorry, I say, and hand the host all the cash I have the twenty-dollar poster my amaze gave me when I express I cherished to take Tiffany out for raisin bran. I asked for devil twenties, moreover mommy verbalise I couldnt relieve oneself the server forty dollars when the meal solo be five, even subsequently I told florists chrysanthemum nigh overtipping, which I learn from Nikki, as you already know.The await says, Thanks, pal. notwithstanding you better go afterwards your girlfriend.Shes not my girlfriend, I say. Shes be grimaces a friend.Whatever.Tiffany is not outside of the diner.I look down the avenue and see her footrace international from me.When I percolate up to her, I ask whats wrong.She doesnt say she keeps running.At a flying pace, we lop side by side clog up into Collingswood, all the way to her parents house, and then Tiffany runs around to the back door without aspect goodbye.